I would love to believe that my relationships are more complicated than other peoples'. I mean, I'm different...not like other girls. Then again, doesn't everyone think that they're different and special? The truth is, people really are special unique little snowflakes and all relationships really are complicated and bizarre. Most of the time they're a lot of fun, too. People are endlessly fascinating. What's complicated, I think, is that people (and by "people" I really just mean me...although I suspect I'm not as unique as I think)have an ideal. So there's this idea in my head of what would constitute a perfect relationship. It doesn't even matter if the ideal is not that demanding. It's still specific. No one can be the thing in my head. Not exactly. That's what makes things complicated. There's always that...well, "that's not exactly what I had in mind" moment, and you have to decide if the alteration from the ideal is acceptable or not. Are you compromising something important, or just learning about this interesting new person who might even be better than what you'd imagined. I'm not sure the D/s dynamic particularly changes that relationship dynamic in any significant way. I often notice sub-types expecting me to match their preconceived ideal. In fact, it seems to be a recurring theme. Chances are, though, that dom-types do the same thing. There's some pretense of the ability to train and mold a willing sub, but a human is a human and attraction is attraction and it's hard to train away a lifetime of reacting to life in a certain way. So we're always left with the same thing: two people, with all their unique specialisms, just feeling each other out to see if they're compatible. It's complicated...and ridiculously fun.

Hello little blog. I'm trying you on again, just to see how you feel. You're a bit dusty, and you don't fit quite right. Still, you're mine. I think I'll give you another try.